I saw,

I ran.

Let’s see, what should I say.

Ok so he told me we are impossible. Lol. So after awhile, I was ok.

Bah I was childish. Meh. Fall in love too easily, more like confused.

However today he told me he would think of me and hoped I’m there so we could hang out and stuff. LOL. Bweheheh I’m good.

Anyway not sure whether I should continue liking him, he’s like too young for me?

And I had my eyes on the guy from the mall. He’s cute and talented. LOL. I wonder who is he, his age, his everything! I only know that he works in the comic shop from before, and he looks abit like that someone, except cuter of course. And not that skinny. He LOOKS perfect!

LOL.

I can only see him from afar. <3

That’s enough for eye candy. <3

Kyuu~
Kyuu.

JUST BECAUSE HE TOLD ME THAT I COULDN’T BE LIKING HIM?

I DON’T KNOW!!

ARGH!! WHY?!!

My heart hurts now.

Sad,
Kyuu.

P/S: Do I love you?

Don’t be surprised
That these are my last words
My last hour of my last day
I’ve taken all the sorrow
I can bear yo
And now I think I’ll turn
Turn and walk away
As wipe cause the tears are building up in my eyes
Feel like I got nothing left to love in my life
20 years of age and its time to say goodbye
Cause I don’t even want to try
To make it through the night

Tell them to forget the show tonight (And I don’t wanna sing)
Tell them I’ve given up alright (And it don’t even mean a thing)
Make sure the headlines say (I did it for love)

Chorus
With you it all fades away,
There’s no more words to say
No more you and me,
Cause the music left with you
And now I’m alone on the balcony
With no more songs to sing,
Only this last serenade
And you know I sing it for you

It won’t be a lie
If I told you my life was hurt
Spring, summer, winter and fall
Tell me what to do with this fame ya’ll
And do my songs matter at all?
Tell them to forget the video (And I don’t want to dance)
Tell them I have left the city yo (And I’m not coming back)
Make sure the headlines say (I did it for love)

Chorus

Anything, I’ll do anything
Please make me whole again
You’re the reason why I sing
Anything, I’ll do anything
Please make me whole again
You’re the reason why I sing

Chorus
(Come home, Come home)

A song sent by my darling,
Kyuu

Shoot. It’s him. In a girl character.

But it couldn’t be him, I thought to myself. He has exams. Well, I have exams too, but he’s not online now! It couldn’t be him!! I was stunned and was thinking of many things after that. The next day I went to college, the memories of him haven’t stop pouring back into my mind. Oh how I remember them well, we were studying together at the library. After our study, we would go somewhere to hang out. Those were the best dates I every went to, because I’m with you, the guy I loved most in my life.

And yet you broke up with me.

That was the biggest heartbreak in my life.

After I went home, I went online again. My ex-husband(in-game) said that I was mean and I won’t do anything nice to him and I’m boring and quiet. I couldn’t help feeling down coz that was the reason we broke up. Tears shed over and over again, yet it still can’t change the fact that I loved him deeply with my heart and then was hurt deeply in the soul by you. You can’t blame me for hating him.

After all, he’s the guy that I loved most, and he crushed my heart, just like that.

I left my PC and game on and went to sleep after my ex-husband told me that. I cried again. I really blamed myself that I was quiet. But it’s me. Why wouldn’t they understand? I know Kyin does. I tried, really, but I just can’t talk much to that someone I love so much. I just get too afraid that he might hate me for the things I do.

Whatever, I don’t need that now.

I don’t need love.

I don’t wanna be hurt no more.

That when he, my ex-husband(in-game) came. He made my day again.

He cheered me up by kisses on the webcam and showing signs saying that “I Love You”, which made me couldn’t help smiling abit. After that he brought his adorable nephew again. Watching him smiling and laughing with his nephew, I smiled. I don’t know why, but seeing him smile makes me happy. Of course, his nephew’s cuteness(he closed the laptop LOL) were one of the reasons I smiled.

But then, a bad thing came.

That bastard messaged me on msn. I was stunned and my mood dropped abit. We talked for like two minutes and stopped. I rather him not to message me coz it hurts. Fuck off you damn bastard, leave me alone.

However my darling brought his nephew to the webcam again.

Later then, something happened.

HIS NEPHEW THREW UP ON HIM.

I LAUGHED SO MUCH I BEGIN TO FORGET ALL MY SADNESS. He was whining and calling his mum as I continued laughing. It was unforgettable.

He went away to clean himself and oh my god, he came back with only a towel covering his bottom parts and even slipped them off to just covering his… friend.

Idiotic pervert. He will regret so much for doing that.

Damn you darling, I love you. <3

Thank you for cheering me up,
Kyuu